Thursday, May 28, 2009

So excited.

Today was Caroline's 2 week appointment. She is 2 weeks and 1 day old today. I have been anxious about this appointment. Caroline has already been to the doctor 6 times since she was born. Each time they checked her Billirubin count and her weight. Jaundice made her lethargic so she wasn't eating great. Her weight was pretty stagnant for the first week of her life, which disappointed the doctors. Because of this I actually nursed her twice on 2 separate days in the doctor's office. They would weigh her before and weigh her after. That was very stressful.

Anyway, today Caroline has surpassed her birth weight tipping the scales at 6 lbs 10.5 oz - woohoo! This is a 7 ounce weight gain since her last doctor's appointment 6 days ago! She has also grown 2 inches longer - laying flat at 20 inches. We have also taken out the inner headrest in her carseat as it is now too small for her! The doc also said she appears to be clear of the Jaundice.

Praise the Lord - my little girl is doing so well. Now it's time to work on some fat rolls!!

4 years

This is bound to be a mushy post. Adam and I got married 4 years ago today. I love sharing life with him. We've known each other for more than 10 years now and we've been together as a couple for almost 9 of those years. Since Adam and I are pretty young - 25 and 26 - that basically means that there's not much of life that we haven't experienced together.

1) We mostly have the same friends
2) We grew up in the same church youth group
3) We had the same high school teachers and were in several classes together
4) Most of the PG-13/R movies we have seen in our life times we have seen together
5) We have grown up with each other siblings, making them like our own siblings
6) We have grown up under the loving direction of each other parents, making them like our own parents
7) We have made many memorable large purchases together - first cars, TV, couches, and of course - house.
8) We had the same first job - Kids Day Camp Counselor Summer of 1999.
9) We were each others' first real date.

I absolutely love that we share so many memories and I love making new ones with Adam. The newest thing we share is our little girl who is still not supposed to be here =) Adam and I wake up everyday thinking "I can't believe she is here!" We are enamored with her and how awesome our Creator is to have created such a beautiful baby girl.

Watching Adam transform into a dad has been so wonderful. He is a great dad and it has only been 2 weeks! I love you so much babe. Take a trip down the memory lane of our marriage...

Engagement picture 2004.

Wedding Day!

1st anniversary trip to the Outer Banks in NC in May 2006. By far one of the coolest places I have ever been.

Trip to Williamsburg, VA in summer 2006.

Beach Trip with my family in Summer 2007.

At our favorite restaurant Macaroni Grill for our 3 year anniversary.

Fall 2008

Training together for the NY marathon. Caroline was with us for some of our training days!

After the NY marathon. We hadn't told our families yet, but I was 9 weeks pregnant on this trip. At that time, we called Caroline "Twig" since we didn't know she was a girl.

Caroline's surprise arrival!

And of course, some pics of Daddy with his girl!
This was taken on May 14th.

This was taken this morning.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Random Blogs I follow

I follow a ton of blogs that my friends and family write, but I have also found some other blogs that I enjoy. I thought I would share what those are:

Southern Savers
- an AWESOME coupon blog! At some point I am going to blog about all that I have learned from this blog.

Cake Wrecks - this is a fun blog of cakes gone wrong by professional decorators. It's great for a laugh.

Stuff White People Like - another fun blog that explores stereotypes about white people. This blog often exemplifies Adam which makes me laugh (white people like marathons, white people like journals, etc).

Does Mommy Love it? - a blog that reviews products for children. The contributors on the blog are all moms. They use the products themselves and then review them. There are often contests on this blog so you can win a product.

Let me know if you follow any cool blogs!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

So that's what happens during the day...

Jehovah's Witnesses stopped by the house today to witness to me. Ahh...door to door solicitation. I guess that is the kind of thing that happens during the day while I'm usually at work.

I wonder what else happens here during the day. I'll let you know what I find.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Pooped On

** Here is another post that I was working on before Caroline arrived. And just so you know, I have actually been pooped on at least 3 times already. **

The pooping is starting already. I went for a jog on Thursday and a bird pooped on me. He watched me jog underneath him as he sat perched on a telephone line. When I noticed what it was, I looked up disgusted at him. He just stared back at me.

Yes, I am still jogging. ** I went for a jog the day before I went into labor. ** I have avoided blogging about this because I don't want people to worry, but it's been such a great part of this pregnancy and I really want to share what it has been like. I discuss my jogging with the doctors at each of my visits and they encourage me to keep going as long as it feels good. And it really does. The best benefit is that I sleep well at night when I have gone for a jog.

I feel extremely lucky to still be able to do this right now. I have talked to several women who are avid runners and were not able to run during their pregnancies due to dizziness, nausea, or even fainting. I haven't experienced any of those. Something I have really learned through pregnancy is that everyone's body is different and what affects me doesn't affect others and vice versa.

I'm down to about 1.2 miles 2-3 times a week. My pace is roughly 10 minutes - I clocked it the other day. This has been a slow digression. I was running more than 3 miles in my first trimester and then down to about 2.5 in the second trimester. As the baby gains more weight, my muscles cramp in different ways and - right now especially - my hips can hurt when I run sometimes. Anytime my muscles start to cramp up, I just stop and walk. The doctors say the cramping muscles is to be expected since all of my muscles are stretching and being strained. Most days I run with no pain at all.

Caroline used to sleep while I ran. Now, she kicks me while I am running. It feels really strange. I guess she is ready to start running herself.


A good friend of ours from church hand painted this gorgeous canvas for our Caroline. It goes perfect with our nursery and hangs directly over the crib. All of our visitors comment about how they love it. We picked out this verse to go on the canvas because it has really been our theme this year. Between job woes, buying a house, and having a baby we have held on to this promise that if we commit ourselves to God in everything we do, our plans will succeed. This is something we are praying Caroline will do in her life. So be in awe of Jessica's talent! Thank you Jessica!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Thank you Nana!

Adam's mom came and stayed with us for our first week at home with Caroline. We tackled many scary tasks like bathing, finger nail clipping, cleaning the umbilical chord site, diaper blowouts, and diaper irritation. Not to mention, we had doctor appointments almost everyday this week for Billirubin checks and we had to wrap Caroline in an ultraviolet blanket all day long most days.

Nana also helped us get some much needed rest. She would take care of Caroline after the early morning feeding (5am - ish) while Adam and I slept. She also took care of us. We ate like kings this week and our house stayed immaculate. Our laundry and dishes were always done and before she left yesterday she tackled our bathrooms, mopped our kitchen, and did a whole house clean.

This week was very emotional for me. Sure a lot of it was hormones, but Caroline's jaundice brought it to a whole new level. Being somewhat of a premie with jaundice made Caroline very sleepy and a lazy eater, which meant she didn't gain weight for a few days. So, of course, I was concerned about nursing her and making sure she got all the nutrition she needed. Mom was super supportive and encouraging.

Nana, we miss you already. We couldn't have done it without you!

Thursday, May 21, 2009


Caroline is experiencing a little freedom now. The day we left the hospital, the pediatrician told us Caroline had Jaundice with a Billirubin count of 13.2. He wanted us to bring her in the next day for another Billirubin check. That started our saga. We have taken her in for a check everyday until today. The second day we checked, the count was 17.1. This meant we had to use a Billi Blanket.

The Billi Blanket looks a lot like a blood pressure cuff except it wraps around Caroline's torso. It is also connected to a box via a hose. When turned on, the blanket lights up bright blue and gives Caroline the UV rays she needs to break down Billirubin in her body. What's nice about the blanket is that we can hold her while she is wearing it. She can also eat with it on and sleep with it on.

It's made things a little more difficult for us because you can't go very far when she is wrapped in the blanket. So for the past several days we move everything into the family room during the day and then into our bedroom at night. Everything includes cradle, diaper changing stuff, and feeding stuff (all the stuff babies do - sleep, potty, eat). Caroline, on the other hand, hasn't been bothered by her blanket at all. In fact, I think it kind of soothes her. The blanket is warm and makes a humming sound.

Yesterday Caroline's count was down to 14.3. The doctor was pleased and told us we could take her off of the blanket at 2pm today! We didn't have to go for a check this morning either - yea! We go back tomorrow for another billi-count. If the numbers are still down, then we are off the hook for good.

So at 2pm today, we took Caroline off the blanket and dressed her in a cute outfit!

Having Nana here this week has been a huge help especially since Caroline has been on the billi. Moving Caroline around in the billi is at least a 2 person job.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

My life will never be the same

Tuesday morning, May 12th, was supposed to be just another day. It started off somewhat normal. Physically I could feel that Caroline had dropped inside me. I went off to work. At 9:30, I had my 36 week appointment. They told me everything looked good. Caroline and I were now measuring 38 weeks, but delivery could still be a few weeks away - "Good," I thought, "still following the plan."

At work, I definitely felt different, but this was what 36 weeks feels like, right? I had to go to the bathroom every 30 minutes and my Braxton Hicks contractions were pretty frequent - normal, right? Things started to get pretty abnormal after that. No one thing told me - I just kind of knew that Caroline was going to come this week. I began to work differently. I sent my boss several emails about how to handle certain things when I left for maternity leave. I requested security access for others so that they would have the kind of access I have and could cover for me when I left. During lunch, I made a list of things I still needed to get before Caroline was born. I also made a list of people to call when I go into labor. I organized the lists in Excel.

At about 1:45 my water broke. I wasn't certain that is what it was. So I proceeded about my day. I went to a 2:00 meeting at work where my boss reminded me to do my midyear evaluation before I left for maternity leave. As soon as I got back to my desk, I did the evaluation. I became more convinced that it was indeed my water breaking. I called the doctor and described my symptoms. Over the phone, the nurse said she wasn't sure whether to get me to come into the office or to go straight to the hospital. I almost broke down then. I begged her to just let me come to the office. I wasn't ready to go to the hospital. She agreed only if I came right away. This was about 3:30.

At the doctor's office, I cried a lot. Before the doctor confirmed that my water had indeed broken, I cried and told her that I was worried about Caroline coming this early. The doctor calmed my fears and said that Caroline would be fine. She reminded me that Caroline was a big girl for 36 weeks measuring 38 weeks and she probably would not even need to go to the NICU. She allowed me to go home and get my stuff together quickly.

I met Adam at the house. He was great. He was so calm. I was an emotional mess. I had a book with a list of stuff to pack. Every time something was in the book that we didn't have, I cried some more. Adam swept in to comfort me. We decided we had time to go to Walmart to pick up the things we needed.

We did the Walmart thing. Just to clarify, I was still in the very early stages of labor. My contractions were coming fast - about every 2-3 minutes, but it didn't feel different than it did the day before. Some people were shocked that I was shopping in Walmart after my water broke, and I would love to claim that I am Superwoman, but that is not the case. I was just one of those rare scenarios where my water broke before the real labor set in.

We got to the hospital close to 7:00 actually after some of our family and friends =). At 4:44 am, our Caroline was born. Adam was a fabulous coach and immediately fell into the role of daddy - doting over her. I was in heaven holding my precious little girl.

Caroline is perfect. When she was born she weighed 6 lbs 8.9 oz. She is 18 inches long. She has gorgeous strawberry blond hair like her daddy. All the nurses were talking about it. She didn't have to go to the NICU. She has got a great set of lungs!

Friday, May 15, 2009

Ready or Not!

*** Our little Caroline came 2 days ago! Adam and I are in a state of euphoria. We can't stop looking at her - even when she is crying. I wrote this post originally less than 2 weeks ago. I was hesitant to post it then because I didn't know what people would think. I revised it a few days later, but still didn't post. It's amazing how God prepared me for this week. ***

*** Original Post below with my 1 week revisions ***

I had my 34 week appointment on Friday only I was almost 35 weeks since I was 35 weeks on Saturday. * I'm 36 weeks now * It was at this appointment that the doctor mentioned that she would not stop me if I went into labor. Just the day before my step-sister mentioned this exact thing.

My appointment went great. Caroline is getting very big. I have always measured exactly right, but at this appointment I measured 37 weeks pregnant - 2 weeks ahead. I am still carrying very high so the doc isn't worried about an early delivery - she just says the baby is getting big. This doesn't surprise me as Adam and I were both 9 pound babies.

As Caroline's birthday approaches, I find myself getting very emotional. There have been many moments this week where tears have flooded my eyes and I'm not even sure why. I'm sure a lot of this is hormonal. I'm so excited about adding a new person to our little family, but I'm also nervous. I wonder what kind of parents we will be and if we are ready for this challenge. I'm also scared of the heartaches we are sure to face as parents. My mom's death at age 15 has made me timid of these big life changes. When Adam and I were engaged, I wondered a lot about the heartache I would feel if he were to die and leave me alone. Of course I believe fully that it is better to have love and lost than not to have loved at all, but the fear of these heartaches still haunts me.

I love Adam more and more each day as I see him grow into this new role - I can't imagine what it's going to be like when there is actually a baby here. But, right now, I see him tend to me and take care of me. He worries and fusses over me. He also puts a lot of care into putting together Caroline's new stuff. He is working diligently on stuff for our new house.

Singing in the choir this morning, I couldn't help but tear up. We were singing about God's awesome grace and how nothing can separate us from the love of God. I couldn't stop thinking about this awesome gift that is inside me right now and the awesome God who created her. In many ways, I want to keep her inside me for a few more months. I know that sounds crazy. It's probably true that when she is born, I won't believe that I ever felt this way. In fact, I may feel that way in a few weeks as this becomes more and more uncomfortable.

People say all the time "I bet you are so ready for this to be over!" And, I don't feel like I am.

* I wrote this post a week ago today. It's crazy to me how my emotions have changed just this week. Everyday I feel more and more ready for Caroline to be here - not because I'm too uncomfortable, but just because I do.

My Caroline

Meet my Caroline!

I'm tearing up already as I write this post. I still can't believe she is here. I am so completely exhausted, but I find myself just watching her instead of sleeping. This little girl has rocked my world already in the best ways.

I love her pathetic whimpers and how she calms down as soon as we pick her up to hold her. I love feeding her. I love how she flails her arms and stretches her legs. She surprised us all by coming 3 and a half weeks early. I think I was the most surprised. I was convinced she would be a few days late, but I'm so elated that she is here.

My first hold.

Taking her home.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Thoroughly Showered

We have been thoroughly showered this week. It started on Saturday when I had a shower with my side of the family. My sister-in-law and I are both great with child so we were showered together. I got a lot of awesome stuff including a jogger, a Christmas stocking for Caroline, hand made dresses, and a Clemson-Carolina quilt.

It was great fun getting to see so many family and friends.

Here is a pic of Emily and I. This may be the only time I am taller than her since she was in flats and I was in heels.

On Wednesday, my work threw us a shower. This is the only shower where we've played games so far and they were good. We had to put the mama animal with the baby animal. Did you know that a baby swan is a cygnet? We also had baby pictures from several shower attendees. We had to guess who was who. I was also blindfolded (kinda sorta with Adam's hand) as I reached in a bag of baby stuff. I had to guess what each item was - nothing gooey - so that was fun too.

Here are some pics from that shower.

The spread:

Playing the blindfold game:

Finally, on Friday, Adam's work showered us with....

Diapers! Hallelujah! I was counting yesterday and I think we have all the size 1 and size 2 diapers we need now (this is assuming 10 diapers a day - I think that's right??). His coworkers also gave us some baby books so our bookshelf is thoroughly stocked!

Coworkers wrapped presents in newspaper. This one was wrapped in one of Adam's stories.

Me with Adam's coworkers around the mountain of diapers!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I sent Adam porn today

The next time you hear from Adam and I, one or both of us could be fired. I accidentally sent Adam an obscene image from my work computer to his today. Ok, I am exaggerating a little =)

I've really gotten into this blog that someone showed me a couple of months ago. The blog is (beware that some images can be obscene). The blog shows ridiculous cakes that bakers have made both unintentionally and intentionally. Today's post was Mother's Day cakes.

I didn't really understand the first 2 cakes: 1) the head of a longhorn cow and 2) a baby with a clothes hanger in its heart. But I often don't understand the cakes so this didn't alarm me. The third image was hilarious - mothers' heads as cakes. I laughed out loud and emailed the post to Adam.

As soon as Adam got the email, he called me at work asking me what was wrong with me and why was I sending him porn at work. Apparently cake #1 was not the head of a longhorn cow, but actually part of the female anatomy.

Yikes! I had no idea that is what that was!